Time for a truly reflective Musical Moment in this story.
I’ve talked a lot about Maddie and the love I have always felt for her, yet even after all these years we have never together beyond the incredible bond of friendship that we share.
I often wonder why I continue to love her after so long – I mean, we always seem to miss the mark, so what is in it for me any longer? It’s easy to ask a question like that.
The thing is I’ve never really asked that question of myself when it comes to that love. I would never ask myself that question.
Will we ever be together? I don’t know.
Have there been other loves in my life? Of course there have, and I have poured my heart and soul into every relationship I have ever found myself in.
Yet Maddie is the constant theme in my life. Not because I choose her to be, but because that’s just the way we are. I love her for who she is, I love her for the way she makes me feel when we share time together.
She makes me feel important.
There could easily be other people come into my life who will steal my heart away, and I’m completely ready for that – but that seems to happen less and less as I get older.
I think of Maddie very much when I hear this song – it is precisely how I look at her friendship – that I would be ready for her if she called me right now and we started something.
Equally, it could be someone else – but it was Maddie who taught me how to love.
Love past the raw animal attraction one might feel, past the passion and even the lust that comes with finding a new flame.
Maddie built the way my heart is. She made it what it is.