I have absolutely no idea how long this is going to take.
Today is Monday, 26 August 2024 – and on the way home from work tonight I decided that I needed to start writing this story, a story of my heart.
I am a very private person. While I’m quite open and even ebullient in everyday life, my personal life is a very hidden part of me.
Hiding it has held me back emotionally in many ways, and I really want to see if belting everything out where it can be seen will help me. I think that it will.
I saw a wonderful psychologist many years ago who identified that I was an internaliser, and that I needed to be more open and honest with myself. She was right, and while I was able to do that for many things in my life, the most personal part of me – my heart – was always locked away.
It’s time. Time to talk about the woman who has been a part of me for nearly 40 years.
I’m not looking for internet fame or celebrity, I don’t want to go viral. I don’t even care how many people do and don’t read this site. I’m not trying to win her over.
It is for me.
Though not our real names, I will call myself Andrew, and I will call her Maddie.
I hope to sit down at least once a week and add a chapter to this story – and see how far it gets. Just maybe, I will never finish it.