I’ve spoken previously about how Richard Marx’s Right Here Waiting is one of the two main songs in my heart for Maddie, and how I felt it related to us.
I wrote how the very first line connected me to the song:
“Oceans apart, day after day, and I slowly go insane…”
…and how listening to Marx speaking about the song, it represented the physical distance between he and his wife Cynthia at that time. She was working on a movie overseas, and he was denied a visa to go and visit her.
They were literally “oceans apart”.
I connected the song with myself and Maddie because it was a time that we were very far apart emotionally, despite there being no physical distance between us at all. We still saw each other every day at school.
My ocean was the emotional distance I had managed to create between us via a series of really bad choices.
Maddie has now been in London for a few months, and as you can guess and can read here on this site – I am missing her terribly.
I have good days, and I have bad days.
I saw a post on Facebook from her last week about an event she had indicated as being “interested in attending”.
When I saw where that event was – that is, somewhere near London – I had a wave of pain wash over me. It was the first outward indication of where she really is. Of how far away she is.
We still talk of course, and we talk about London and how she’s enjoying her time there – but seeing her really connected to London via that post?
That kicked me in the guts. A lightning bolt of reality.
This time, we really are physically and truly – oceans apart.